For the month of January I deleted all my social media apps off of my phone and signed out of them on all my devices. This was my last post of 2018. I wanted to do this for a few reasons, namely it was the first time I publicly spoke about my alcoholism and my mental health issues. I wanted to put it out there and just kinda walk away from it. The other reason is I waste so much of my time scrolling through feeds it makes me feel like a zombie. I wanted to pick up a book or spent more time with my family instead of having my soul taken by my phone.
At first it was really hard, I wanted to know what people were saying about my post, if they were saying anything at all. I wanted to know what was going on in the world, twitter is my portal into the news and what my friends are doing, I wanted to share the cool pictures I was taking of all the real life stuff I was doing. I felt like I was missing out for sure. I set up an RSS reader app to try and stay up on the news and current events, and that worked well until it didn’t.
At some point towards the end of the month I lost interest in trying to be up to date on everything, I started not to miss instagram and twitter. I noticed that even in theory short form updates and snapshots just didn’t interest me anymore. It lacks depth, and substance. That being said I did stay up until midnight on the 1st so I could check all the things. I didn’t get the feeling that I used to get when doing that. It all seemed like static. I purged myself of social media for a month and I think it cured me. Sure I’ve checked them the last few days, but I haven’t been as interested in them, I’m not living through them. And I think thats a good thing and its something that will stick with me.